January 2012
Waldstein on the turntable, loud. It’s mischievous. It reminds me of a young cat.
This cave is very small and
small like the way the inside of a toque is small. The Old Man Who Lived In A Toque. Hmph.
I wish I had somewhere to be. Someone to be a complete nerd with.
Aside from analysing Beethoven using cats, tonight will be so very uneventful.
“…the contemporary culture of authenticity slides towards soft relativism....”
– Charles Taylor, from The Malaise of Modernity
30 January
Woke up this morning from a dream within a dream. It took ten minutes for me to remember where I was, and why I was so suddenly awake. “Get your phone, check your emails, that will ground you in reality.”
and still all day I would catch glances or see someone and have to remind myself of the realness of that person. it was strange to catch myself drifting.
I cut my hair short, the...
“I’m just sick of ego, ego, ego. My own and everybody else’s. I’m sick of...”
– Franny and Zooey - J.D. Salinger (via thisismysundrenchedworld)
Anonymous asked: Have you ever been in love?
Fighting through chapters of Mohamedou’s Understand Al-Qaeda with those back against wall on comfortable bed eyes closing eyes closing almost asleep moments. So I gave up, changed Schubert to Wilco on the turntable, flipped open Wright and, with feet on bed chin on chest I am enjoying this evening. I keep forgetting I should eat something. Remind me.
It was the beginning of the battle this...
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“…knowledge has to do with the interrelation of humans and the created...”
– N.T. Wright, from New Testament and the People of God.
o, winter!
things seen and heard but softly.
that bus fishtail through the intersection with its engines groaning and tires squeal. my beard, frozen so many times.
crunch.
the birds not crows, that are found sometimes in the morning grey.
crunchcrunch.
peppermint tea and the order of the phoenix.
Something is changing but I can’t put my finger on it. Maybe it is the late night feeling when life seems to seep outside and fill up this cave, when the lights seem brighter and the music is lower and everything is more comfortable.
It’s almost 2 in the morning and I just feel like talking, and listening. But today was all of that and laughing, procrastinating. I’m not sure...
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“What now predominates is a painful and all-consuming desire to be exactly and...”
– Hal Niedzviecki in Hello, I’m Special
“In the future, everybody will be ordinary for fifteen minutes”
– Michael Collins
Rex tremendae maiestatis qui salvando salvas gratis salva me, fons pietatis
things heard
a descending plane and the siren of a fire truck creating a major third. it made me stop and half smile.
Freezing rain.
And clouds no longer hanging, nor laying,
but embracing and then a stab in the back. An itchy, heavy wool blanket tucked in under the bed.
I think I’m just going to spend the rest of my night laying on the floor. It’s really nice down there.
I have a feeling I’m going to be a student forever.
For now, back in Death Valley Little Brother for an excellent americano and a critical response paper on the myth of self-esteem. I really enjoy it in this place.
I’m really excited for today, the grey is calming, and winter-people are beautiful.
Last night I fell asleep with last May in mind, I don’t know if I’ll...
“While history and theology work at their stormy relationship, there is always a...”
– N.T. Wright, The New Testament and the People of God (via exceptionallyread)
“Thus says the LORD of hosts: “Consider your ways!”
– Haggai 1:7
brainclouds
So many thoughts on new friends, on the destruction of culture on the destruction of self-esteem (is self-esteem what is necessary? why am I told that I can do whatever I want when there is no assurance of my becoming a world famous musician? why not just self-worth? whereas self-esteem says you can do whatever you want in life, self-worth reaches deeper into)
i don’t know i don’t...
